The last few weeks have been a struggle for me. Normally, I'm able to get basically everything done in time for my classes, but it hasn't worked out so smoothly during the month of March. As usual, I've been praying to my Heavenly Father, expressing that I know that all things are possible in Him and that I'm willing to accept whatever His will may be.
He let me struggle for a while, and last Thursday I think I figured out one of the main reasons for my trial. In my New Testament class we just studied the chapters in the four Gospels that cover Christ's suffering in the Garden of Gethsemane, and my teacher did a wonderful job of bringing the Spirit into the classroom for the lecture. At one point, Elder Jeffery R. Holland (a member of the Quorum of the 12 Apostles) was quoted saying that as the Savior approached the suffering He knew would come in Gethsemane, He pled with the Father, "All things are possible unto thee, remove this cup from me, but nevertheless not my will but thine be done." The similarities between my prayers and his shocked and somehow comforted me.
There's no way that I'll be able to ever understand just how badly my Lord suffered as He took on all the pains of the world's sins and afflictions, but I felt like I could empathize with the Savior's plea. I understand better now that we have to allow our will to be swallowed up in the Father's (as Christ exemplified) in order to learn, grow, and accomplish the things the Father knows we need to do. Often, growth and change are very uncomfortable, but Heavenly Father knows the end from the beginning and He loves us enough to stretch us now so we can grow eternally.
I've decided that I need to get better at self-expression. I've always felt like I can understand concepts and situations but can't figure out how to share with those around me. I'm going to try to exercise my verbal expression muscles by posting about some of my deeper-set beliefs every so often. I'm not asking you to agree with everything I say, but I hope that through this blog you, dear reader, and I will learn and grow together.
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Sunday, April 1, 2012
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