We just had a two-week break from college, and it was very relaxing... maybe too relaxing. I spent a lot more time goofing off than I meant to, so I didn't get everything done that I wanted to (like posting twice a week on here) and my normal lifestyle pattern went out the window. Instead of going to bed around midnight and waking up around 7 am, I consistently stayed up into the wee hours of the morning and slept in as long as I could. I didn't read scriptures as long as I planned to, and I was distracted while I read. I had a lot of fun and spent some good time with family (and friends, but not as much time as I had hoped), but I found myself feeling numb and dull after about a week. It took another week of trying to go back to how I wanted to live to see some real change. Just last night, while having a spiritual discussion with a man I really respect, I finally recaptured some enthusiasm for how I wanted to be living. On the other hand, leaving home and hearing some bad news today left me a little emotional drained. On the other other hand though, I talked to some good college friends and I don't feel drained anymore, so I know I can make it.
I guess I'm not talking about anything profound right now, but I guess the lesson I learned (again...) is that when I get lazy/apathetic and don't stick to how I know I need to live, it takes a lot of effort to rebound, so I really can't afford to let myself slide down--especially if I want to be an effective servant of God.
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